It has been a while, and I have a lot on my mind, so let’s share!
First off, let me say I am going to see Pink in concert tonight in Cleveland, and I am getting excited for that! I haven’t got to have a night out with my girls in a long time, so it will be a fun night.
While this is probably the only aspect of my life that has been “fun” as of lately, I must say I am really stressed. With this move to NYC quickly approaching and no job opportunities present, I am really stressed and upset about everything. I had a phone interview lined up, only to never get a call. I send out about 30-45 resumes a week, and still hear nothing. My living arrangements have changed from an apartment to renting out a room…
…and this is all supposed to happen in less than five weeks.
With each passing day, I feel like it isn’t going to happen, and it’s made me really sad and mad at myself. Sad because I feel like I will never be able to move there and mad because I feel like I am just not made to make it out there, or to ever be near Tyler or to do anything with my life.
I mean, I know going from Ohio to NYC is going to be challenging, but I guess I just want things to be easy. I want to be able to have a full-time job in a field I love, and live in a great city and be able to call up my boyfriend and ask what he’s making us for dinner. Instead, I live in the middle of nowhere, working retail, and seeing my boyfriend through a screen most of the time.
It just sucks after a while. I really am trying to stay positive, but it’s hard sometimes. I get down on myself for not reaching my goals and deadlines and can’t seem to manage much. It’s just upsetting and a lot of the time, I keep it to myself as to not be clingy or repetitive or annoying. That doesn’t help matters either, so there’s not much I can actually do.
Tonight, however, I will attempt to push this all out of my mind and enjoy a night with friends, only to return to this anxiety tomorrow.
Till then, keep me in your thoughts.
As some of you may know, I am going to be moving to NYC in the next five weeks. While my job hunt has been exhaustive, I am still coming up empty handed, so this is where you all come in!
I am in desperate need of a job and am pretty much willing to do everything excluding drug smuggling. So, if any of you out there might have a connection to a possible job for me, I would really appreciate it.
I was looking for jobs in editing and/or writing, but am able to work as a waiter, host, bartender, retail, or anything along those lines.
If any of you know anything, pleeeeeease tell me or tell your connections of me.